You can’t go home again: And other psychoanalytic lessons from crossing a neo-colonial border
通过作者在巴勒斯坦被占领土上穿越新殖民边界的亲身经历，用精神分析和后殖民理论分析田野工作如何改变研究者对自我和他者的认知，适合关注反思性、殖民主义和组织研究的学者。
The purpose of this article is to situate the nexus between reflexivity and fieldwork through autoethnographic analysis. Specifically, drawing on psychoanalytic and postcolonial thought, this article utilizes introspective data from field research conducted in the occupied Palestinian territories to explore how Qalandiya – a neo-colonial militarized border crossing between Jerusalem, Israel and the West Bank’s twin cities of Ramallah and al-Bireh – came to significantly alter the researcher’s conceptions of self and Other. Namely, drawing on first-hand experiences at Qalandiya – reconstructed through monologue style voice recordings, emails with colleagues, telephone conversations, personal diary entries, and memory – this article illuminates the discursive impact the field has upon the researcher’s self. Finally, this article concludes with a discussion of the ontological, the epistemological, and the ethical implications of pursuing research at neo-colonial sites in organization studies.