‘ And we gossip about my life as if I am not there’: An autoethnography on recovery from infidelity and silence in the academic workplace
作者通过自我民族志方法，探讨丈夫出轨带来的背叛创伤如何影响其学术身份、工作表现及恢复过程，区分了有毒秘密、伤害性沉默和治愈性沉默，发现沉默在学术职场中既有保护作用也有伤害性。
In this autoethnography, I engage with betrayal trauma from my husband’s infidelity as it relates to recovery and my academic identity, and my work performance. As I navigate between the trauma, the stigma and taboo, the shame and lack of knowledge, my responsibilized academic self, the collegial interactions, and the question of whether keeping silent robbed me of my voice, I distinguish toxic secrets, hurtful silencing and healing silence. Although the exploitative nature of the academic workplace had never been more visceral, I also found that a tending silence contributed to my protection and my recovery. In silence, my academic life is opening up to embracing needs rather than enduring hardships, to inviting rather than striving, to vulnerability rather than empowerment.